Even though alot of you know me as a very outspoken, candid, sometimes funny person I have always been a pretty shy private person. I always protected my life not by emotional walls but by maintaing a fairly private life. Not one to seek limelight, comfortable in my relationships with friends, and family, my life is full and rich in ways that I can not even begin to say.
Not long ago I decided to be less private, to expand my personal relationship horizons. This was done by Blogging, Facebook & Twitter. I have until recently enjoyed my new open life. I have been fortunate to meet some really amazing people,and to be the recipient of true altruistic encouragement and love. I will continue to be involved with the people who have befriended me and whom have excepted me, with no reservations or agendas into their lives. I am grateful and continue to have these amazing folks in my simple life.
The flip side of being less private is just that, as we know. Recently I have been hurt by a individual who has violated my personal life and has left me feeling isolated and alone. Being public allows people to be critical, I understand that but when a person is critical, and plain mean whilst being sweet to your face just enforces my ideas that privacy is good and puts me in a place whereas I must make difficult decisions.
This will be my last blog post and I will be taking my posts down in the next few days. I will also be altering the way I interact on Twitter and will stop following some folks & blocking others. I will also stop tweeting about my personal life in the public stream. It saddens me to do this as the experience up until now has been very positive, yet I must look out for what is best for me at this time in my life.
Remember folks that words in a unmoderated forum can hurt or push people away. That social media in it's form allows for one thing I cherish free speech, but that some speech is not always healthy to ones soul.
Friends in my final post I want to leave you with this... Love your friends, yourself, and be true to your convictions. Always follow your heart and your passions. Hug someone today, tell someone how special they are and finally do some random act of kindness. I still believe that people are in general good. We all seek the same core things, Love, Acceptance, Freedom, connection with others.
So "Good Bye" & "Be Well" I look forward to continuing my dialog with those i trust to do so with & to others I hope you find peace.
"Wander Aimlessly & Bark Like a Dog"
Steven
we dont owe anything to anybody. what we give is free, and thats what makes it valuable. may the schwartz be with you.
ReplyDeleteI'm going to miss your blog, Steven. I like your sense of humour! I'm sorry to hear that someone hurt you - people can be such assholes sometimes. And it's especially sucky because it deprives you of the benefits you got from putting yourself out there. But I totally understand that you need to do what you need to do to protect yourself. Take care. And hopefully I'll still get to see you around!
ReplyDeleteI came over from twitter I have been following you for a while now.Don't delete your blog just put it aside for a bit. After my mother died last year I had some pretty horrid things written about me by my own brother and his minions stalked my blog for ages. This made me feel terrible. My blog had always been a source of great comfort to me and at that time I dreaded even opening up my gmail. But now 7 months on I am pleased that one arsehole didn't stop me from writing honestly about my life.
ReplyDeleteAll the best Kim
No matter how public or private you decide to make your life - we will be friends for a long long time. If it wasn't for social networking, I would never have met you. And I feel incredibly blessed that you are in my life.
ReplyDeleteHere is the biggest hug ever, just for you *HUG*
Do not be a stranger.
I'm very sorry that something like this has happened to you Steven. I will miss your blogs with your unique, twisted sense of humour ;)
ReplyDeleteBeing a very private and shy person myself, I can empathise. It's a sucky thing that you are going through but I am happy to read that the hurtful actions of one person haven't ruined the friendships you have made with others.
xoxo
Mandy
You will be greatly missed but I respect your decision. I'm glad to have had the chance to know you, and wish you all the best.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry for whatever was done by whomever it was done. Don't let the bad people ruin you. Then they win and the world is worse off. I understand your need for more privacy. You've been hurt and need to back away. It's human. I'm glad we connected and hope I am one of those with whom you chose to keep in contact. Regardless, you are in my thoughts for positive outcomes. Only the best wishes for you.
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